Goddess is the story of a girl who journeys on a path of relentless self discovery and understanding. As the girl starts off young, naïve and curious, she falls victim to external expectations, seeking ‘sameness’ and succumbing to conformity. But the girl grows and discovers her mind, clinging tight to the aspects of herself that make her peculiar and unique. Upon realisation and discovery, the girl transforms and experiences a metamorphosis of self. The girl is no longer a girl, she is a goddess. The goddess understood she did not need to find herself, she purely opened her mind and eyes to what was already there. The goddess celebrates her strangeness and difference. The goddess is rare and one of a kind.
Music: Goddess – Chrome Sparks
Videography – Sohan Judge (Lunar Sequence)
Styling & Muse: Rowi Singh
‘Goddess’ is a project Sohan and I have been working on for quite some time. It’s a product of our creative minds; my creative styling and Sohan’s directing and videography.
‘Goddess’ strongly echoes parts of my childhood. I moved around the world quite a bit as a child, so I had to constantly adapt to different social situations and cultures. It was easier to tell myself fit in, Rowi then to say just be you. Because being me wasn’t actually cool. I was dorky, lanky, awkward and a major tomboy. I had goofy teeth, broad shoulders from swimming and tiny metal glasses. I often found myself in really weird social situations hanging out with kids that I thought were ‘cool’, but I just felt really uncomfortable being with them.
When I lived in Connecticut, I completely forgot who I actually was that I forgot I was Indian altogether, which is incredibly embarrassing and shameful. This was just a product of growing up in an extremely upper class white washed society. I really enjoyed my time there, but looking back now I realised I was a different person who had no idea who she was.
It was only when I moved back to Sydney after living in Singapore that I started to understand my culture a bit better, and rediscovered my heavy appreciation for the exquisiteness of my Indian heritage, and the beauty of being Sikh. I felt like I experienced a proper transformation of the mind as I connected, understood and grew into my confidence.
I never thought I’d call myself a goddess, because most of us don’t really understand the concept. It’s not about possessing a flawless and untouchable beauty, it’s about embracing those individual peculiarities and viewing them in a different light. Only then will you discover your love for yourself and true confidence. When I look in the mirror, I don’t see this mysterious exotic Indian girl with flowing black hair and strong eyes. I see this awkward clumsy thing, with peach fuzz on the upper lip, lusciously hairy arms, uneven skin tone, pimples, bent chicken legs and dark knees.
But I love it. I love the fact that I’m a little bit weird. I love the fact that I have strange bendy witch hands and I will probably never hold in a burp. It’s what makes me, me. And it’s what contributes to the making of my inner goddess.
If you hold insecurities, I encourage you to see those differences in another light. Your stretch marks are your very own tiger stripes and your hairy arms are your very own tiny feathers for your wings. I’m trying so hard to not sound as cliché as possible and I’m sorry if I do, but only when you come to accept your difference will you find your ‘inner goddess’. It is so important to love every inch of your body and your mind, because you are so brilliantly radiant and exquisite.
Here are some extremely awkward pictures of me from my childhood: